Showing posts with label getting old. Show all posts
Showing posts with label getting old. Show all posts

Getting Old - No More To Return

​Old age happens when you're not looking.
It happens with recurring events 
like; January snow 
long hot summer days
and you no longer celebrating birthdays.
It doesn't come with the crackle of fireworks
more; the way a river reshapes a stone over time - persistently 
quietly and unnoticed.
Finally the stones sharp edges become smooth,
like it would fit more comfortably into the palm of your hand.

​Although the reflection in the mirror becomes a stranger
that too becomes more comfortable to you over time
telling you the truth - even though you don't want it,
nor did you ask for it.
Your face becomes softer
telling your story
the story of who you are - who you were.
Lines in the corners of your eyes
tell of times of sun
of times your heart was
full of joy  - as well as full of hurt.

​Your knees have an uncomfortable language of their own.
'Clicks' and 'cracks' cause groans and sighs
which speak of miles walked and burdens carried.
Lifes pace slows,
time seems burdensome - there's not enough it
yet somehow; too much of it.
The inevitable destination 
not being further away
simply; you slowing down and the littlest of things demaning more attention than they used to.

​There are things to let go of.
Things that previously seemed important 
now; seems less so.
The need to be the loudest,
to have the newest,
the fastest,
the largest - are now not so important.
The heavy armor we used to wear to keep the world out,
now sits uncomfortably about our shoulders.

And why is the air cooler?
Is the skin more delicate,
or is the once flowing hair now thinner and more grey?
And that silence inbetween words
is no longer an uncomfortable empty space,
more a joy,
a refuge,
like a comfortable chair where you can finally sit down and rest.

​The light too is different at certain hours.
Where once uncomfortably bright - it now glows,
turning the everyday ordinary;
into gold.
You notice the stars have come out
with a calling to look up 
and gaze
and wonder
and enjoy the light
before it fades one more time - no more to return.

(Haiku)


Getting old means you
can put inches on your waste 
looking at a cake

Getting Old

Getting old brings biological changes
With old age cells and molecules accumulate damage
leading to a decline in physical and mental abilities. 
The metabolism slows down 
A prevalence of body fat can increase in the midriff 
this can increase the risk of health problems such as diabetes. 
Life changes such as retirement or a  move to more appropriate housing can unsettle.
Old age can bring the death of friends or life partners
and you suddenly find yourself enjoying the coverage of the bowls on BBC 2

Getting Old

Getting old  -  'Accomodation'
Finding you current accomodation isn't appropriate 
the garden's too big to manage
you can't do the stairs
the bathroom is upstairs and inappropriate 
you'd have to modify your house to be able to stay there
you'd have to get a gardener
maybe you are unable to modify your current house
you have to consider moving
you have to move
you have to downsize
what to get rid of
maybe you have to move to sheltered accomodation 
move away from friends and life-long connections!
even moving into a home 

Getting old - 'Food'
The practicalities 
Food in jars
tins
boxes
packets - are you able to open them
are they too heavy to lift
can you get them down from cupboards and shelves
is your kitchen suitable anymore for you to cook in
are you safe in the kitchen now
where is your food going to come from
if you're not able to buy it yourself 
not wanting to impose on neighbours 
not having a clue about the internet
not able to order food online
what options do you have

Getting old - 'Eating'.
what are you going to eat
can you cook it or are you going to eat 'ready made food
sandwiches 
cold pies and pasties
the quality of your diet will decrease
you might need help to cook 
you won't be able to cook like you used to 
you'll be cooking what you can 
not cooking what you want
you might not feel like eating anyay
all the equipment you now need
having to use specially adapted knives and forks to eat with
having to use special plates with enlarged edges to keep your food on the plate 
unable to eat without assistance
dropping more food on the floor than you ate
not really feeling hungry
can't be bothered 

Getting old - 'Tablets'
Chances are you'll have an illness
Illness means tablets
lots of tablets
having to order lots of tablets
having to reorder lots of tablets
remembering to order enough of the right tablets
having a system to manage all your tablets 
remembering to take all of your tablets
remembering to take the tablets at the right time
remembering which tablets you have taken 
and suffering with the side effects from all those tablets.

Getting old - 'Sleep'.
Always feeling sleepy 
falling asleep
always falling asleep 
falling asleep in your chair
falling asleep in the doctor's waiting room
falling asleep on the bus
falling asleep at the dinner table
falling asleep anywhere - everywhere
yet not able to sleep through the night.

Getting old - 'The memory'.
Simply loosing your train of thought
loosing it often 
loosing your memory 
loosing your memory occasionally
loosing your memory mid-sentence
loosing your memory often
not recognising people
not recognising family members 
not able to look after yourself

Getting old - 'Illness'.
Suffering falls
bones break and limbs are injured so easily 
becoming unwell
picking up everything that's going around 
being suseptible to illness
not wanting to bother the doctor
having to have home help
having to have strangers come and get you out of bed in the morning - 
then 
having strangers come and get you ready for bed 
being unwell with things you previously shook off
the slightest thing knocking you back
becoming mentally unwell
becoming forgetful
becoming very forgetful 
becoming demented 
not knowing anyone
drifting away

Getting old - 'Loss'.
Letting go
having to let go
handing in your driving licence 
letting go of the car
loosing items
remembering where you put things
loosing your independence 
loosing close friends
loosing family members
loosing a life partner...

loosing your mind
loosing the world
and finally
...the world loosing you.




Getting Old

Children are in everything!
Children
Children
Children!
They drive cars
they're buying houses
they're even having children of their own! 
The police recruit them.
They're all over our 'screens'
they're driving trains,
they're even becoming doctors!
They're all over society
they're running their own businesses
they're becoming teachers
they're even standing for parliament!
They're everywhere in sport.
They play for our top teams
they're playing for their countries 
they're even becom...
...wait a minute.

...am I just getting old!