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Condolences?
but the dog died many years ago 
now the kids are arguing 
it's raining and I'm tired - but no
no condolences are required 
when you come home my world seems better
for a second anyway
but those photographs are still in the shoe box under the stairs  - with your other stuff
you put that image into the media
and I was framed - no I'm not feeling OK 
the scars on my soul say I'm not
what did I do
I know I lied - what I told the nurse wasn't true
I don't trust myself
but we've got to keep each other
we must - so why's she back
it's as sad as a box of unsold teddy bears after valentines day
I don't know why you did it
it would drive anyone over the edge
did you do this for her - staged her disappearance 
the rented caravan - should I have  broken in?
There are sketches of naked women
and driftwood models
are those her
I mean - so you only had sex once
the biscuit tin is now empty 
and I'm starving - and now another offer's just come in
do you want to come over for supper
maybe catch the bad man in the act
you're not after my sister are you
you haven't even met her yet
do we need to be extra careful 
or should I just run.

Just ring me
I'd like you to pop over

(Haiku)

The moon sits amidst
clear night skies and winter fights 
springs awakening.

Career Advisor

All I ever wanted to be sort of waxed and waned
I never had big dreams
like wanting to be a spaceman
or drive a steam train
It all sort of came and went
I did think I might join the navy - but that idea went after 5 minutes
I'm nobody's sailor
it would have been a disaster!
I'm 63 and I still don't know what I want to do for a career!
I'd like to be a world famous poet or artist
or both
and make lots of money from my work
I might go and find a career advisor and see what they say!


Circle - A temporary fix

Scratching an itch
you think...
in scratching it 
you will relieve it
make it better - only...
you're going to damage your skin
if you keep scratching 
you're going to damage your skin
it's just a temporary fix
temporary relief 
you're just fooling the brain that it's all OK - it's cause and effect
sort out the cause!
or like
that long relaxing draw on a cigarette after a busy morning at work
stood in a huddle
outside in the rain
smoking
soothing the need 
the need for a quick fag - whilst it slowly kills you
or
biting the flesh of your finger in rage
subduing your anger 
whilst your teeth 
cut into your skin
or...
drinking
and drinking
and drinking
because you need it
and because you feel better after having it
but you realise just what you have become
and you hate yourself for it
for being an alcoholic 
so you have another drink
drinking to drown your sorrows 
drinking to lift your mood
drinking after a bad day 
damaging
damaging your liver
damaging your life - and slowly killing yourself!

It's a circle
a circle you need to break 
otherwise
...it's all just a temporary fix









Subtitles

Wind-chimes jingle
The doorbell chimes
A lighter babbles and the stream clicks
Girls close and doors laugh
Fish fly
Flies fish
Taps drip
Feet tap
Waves just - wave
Cows on bicycles - bark
Birds sing like singing birds
Music prays
The vicar plays
Grass shouts
Sheep argue
Wind sucks
Engines rev
Tannoys disagree
Sirens shout
Mobile phones buzz
...and subtitles add depth and understanding 
to those hard of of thinking

How Old Am I?

Check your birth certificate 
it's today's date minus the date on that
It's the number of years you've been alive
It's the number written on the front of your birthday cards - if they've sent you any
what does your wife say you are?
Maybe it's something to do with you shouting at the adverts on the telly 
it's how knackered you feel having just climbed the stairs
or the way you groan after getting out of your chair
it's how you feel after seeing an old school mate
it's as old as not remembering why you went into the kitchen 
as old as how long it takes you to 'wee' at 2am in the morning!
Maybe it's your shoe size?

I think I'm 63 - but with a mental age of 12!