The Echo of the Fen


​Only one person shed a tear.
The woman who wove his bones,
the woman who finally reached out a hand
to flick the switch and silence the machines.
A savage end delivered by a member of the same trade - one dark shadow striking another
all within the high-walled silence of the state.
Even a mother’s mercy had run dry.
She whispering to the air that it was for the best,
given the hollow shell that remained.
​And so, the public ledger closes.
We, who paid for the iron bars,
Now pay for the fire and the urn.
A final tax on a devious life.
The man who thought a change of tyres
could wash the blood from his hands.
​The man beside who; stood the shadow of a shadow.
a woman of the classroom,
a keeper of children who kept his secrets instead.
She who wore her lies like a second skin,
trading her freedom for a traitor’s peace.
Now carrying a borrowed soul
with a borrowed name,
just a ghost bought and paid for by us; the people,
vanishing into the crowd behind a brand-new face.
​Does a case like this exhume our best side or our worst?
When the monster falls, 
the old cry rises,
"An eye for an eye - a life for a life!"
The gallows haunt the public squares once more.
For; in the quiet of the heart - the questions ache.
What would I crave if the children were mine,
if the lights of my life were snuffed out in such a manner?
​And what of the one who killed the killer?
Does a murder in a cell wash the world clean,
or do we just need another yard rope?
Is the rage of Anthony Russell a different shade of black
darker than the darkness that fired those first blows?
​Who could break someone's world so completely?
Who could steal the breath of two ten-year-olds?
The mind is a labyrinth of mis-meshing gears
a fever-fed nightmare of power; pride and screaming ghosts.
It is a cocktail of the conscious and the void,
where empathy is a language never learned,
and control is the only god to be served.
​In the end there are no winners in this mess.
A murderer is murdered by his mirror image
behind a locked door in a darkened hall.
All we are left with is the heavy weight of forgiveness - a bridge too far for many to cross.
​If we say they are sick - we acknowledge the wound.
If the wound cannot be healed,
then let the walls stay high; bars shut and the locks stay fastened,
keeping their darkness at bay
for all our sakes
and for the length of their natural days.

In case you don't know


Toads in cars
fought drunks in bars
whilst walking dogs
on leads with frogs
as the strain took the train
full with fish - a first class dish
there in the sky
learning to fly
the music plays
a skirt hem frays
Could; gales
be the farts of whales?
Black and tan
cocktail - or hard man?
You choose 
which one to loose
a peaceful dove
or a purple foxglove?
Options had - some good; some bad
black or white - neither's right
avoiding the fools
'Google' the rules,
an annoying half rhyme
like "frog on the Tyne"
or clanking one
like "a hot-cross-bun"
the lamb had Mary
an ending quite scary 
Little Miss Muffet
had to look-up; 'A Tuffet'
and; what is 'Myrrh'
do confer!
Myrrh is an sweet scented, bitter-tasting, reddish-brown; resin
well that is what an internet search came back and; says-in case you don't know
I say; in case you don't know!


Conflict - the perfect recipe

Ingredients:
​A revolution, aged and volatile.
​Falling markets.
​A large selection of well-educated people.
​A bitter slice of the Iran–Iraq War.
​A whole country transformed into a theocratic state.
​A pinch of the death of a president.
​Billion-dollar B-2 bombers.
​A severe economic strain.
​The entirety of the I.R.G.C.
​A century of cold distrust with the West.
​Several spikes in oil prices.
​Drone attacks, garnished with counter-attacks.
​A large supply chain shock.
​Tensions, specifically with the U.S. - ground to a fine powder.
​Cancelled flights and intercepted missiles.
​Reparation flights in hand.
​Hundreds of deaths.
​Failed plans intending to liberate a people - now shaken liberally around the world, left to find whatever life they can.
​Missiles, for both sides to launch.
​Seasoned with death and misery.
​A handful of despair to decorate.

​Method:
​Preheat the area (it’s already warm). The ships alight in the Straits of Hormuz will help with that.
​Marinate a people with a deep and ancient heritage. Place them into an impossible situation.
​Simmer half of the million-dollar Tomahawk cruise missiles in the skies above the capital - save some for later.
​Reduce to total chaos. Choke the shipping lanes until the oil thickens.
​Say no to nuclear missiles. Julienne the borders until the humanitarian, economic, and security consequences spill out.
​Search for the end game. If one can’t be found, simply whisk up widespread displacement and increased migration, then dribble on risks of global financial instability.
​Moisten with a squadron of F-35 jets if required.

​Rest for five minutes. Iranians can’t.
​Blanch a civilization which goes back thousands of years.
​Warm aircraft carriers ready to dispatch and knock back this rich tapestry of a country. Pull it apart—bit by bit.
​Add destroyers, warships, and maybe a few "boots on the ground."
​Turn out this objective of a deranged President onto an unprepared work-surface.
​Finally, cobble together a complete regime change—from the skies above, if necessary.

​Serve:
​Pour out this once-proud culture, once profoundly shaped with poetry, hospitality, and a complex social etiquette of politeness and deference. Display a rich, diverse culture with a mix of Persian, Azeri, and Kurdish traditions.

​Alternatives:
​Try replacing the war with a long-lasting and comprehensive two-state peace deal.
​Try ensuring security for Israel and a viable, sovereign state for the Palestinians.
​Add a splash of regional stability and the cessation of proxy conflicts.
​You might even try a couple of crumbs of humanitarian recovery.

​Nutritional Warning:
​Ask yourself: Who am I fighting? Who am I in a conflict with? Surely not the ordinary Iranian people—haven’t they suffered enough?

Warning: May contain traces of lost generations. Results are permanent. Not suitable for human consumption.

(Haiku)

Eight cans of cider
and another air fresh'ner.
Who is he fooling?

(Haiku)

Frozen mud softens.
Green glass shards, signs of rebirth,
crack the earth's shell.

Do you see?

Some look and see 'black'.
Some look and see 'white'.
Some are told they must see 'white' - despite their eyes seeing 'black'!
Some see in an idealogical way.
Some are told what they see is wrong
and some are told what to say they saw!
Some only see what they know.
Some only see what their gender conditions tell them to see.
Some would never see it even if it happened right in front of their noses!
Some see it with an artistic expression.
Some choose to close their eyes and see nothing
whilst some close their eyes and see only what they imagined they saw!
Some only see what the want to see.

Some close their eyes,
stick their fingers in their ears
...and say they never noticed anything at all!
Do you see?

Peace came upon us

And so it came to pass
the for-told coming of a great storm
and so the storm did settle upon us
clouds brought darkness,
thunder and lightning,
rain brought floods
bringimg forth storms such the eyes of man had never seen!
chaos and mess descended about all the house
lo...

it was Sunday afternoon and, the children had packed and left,
we had a quick tidy up...

And peace came upon us!

Questions

Why are we here and not somewhere else?
Could we be somewhere else at the same time as being here?
What is time anyway?
Why do we only experience time in a forward linear direction? 
Where has yesterday gone?
Can we really know nothing?
Does nothing exist?
Should we be moral?
Do acts of kindness have a motive?
Is God a 'he?'
If there is a God, why does he allow suffering, 
and why does he not intervene when evil takes root?
If God was a 'she', wouldn't she make a better job of it?
Is the most important purpose in life to find happiness?
Have we become less happy in this age of technology?
Who determined that "apple" meant apple and not raspberry? 
How can people believe in something without evidence?
Why do we trust our senses? 
Why do we assume the universe operates on logical laws; rather than chaos and that our perception of reality is true?
Why does humanity exist at this specific point in cosmic time?
Is the 'red' I see the same 'red' you're looking at?
Why do we assume there is a purpose to life?
Are happiness and love just certain chemicals flowing through your brain or is it something more?
Is there inherent order in nature or is it all chaos and chance?
Is it better to be respected or liked?
Is nothing something?
Are humans obliged to better themselves?
Why do we perceive ourselves as the same person over a life-time?
Is having a big ego a negative or positive trait?
Do we really have free will?
Does life require a purpose and goal?
Would you kill 10 people to save 100?
Is it easier to love or to be loved?
Where do thoughts come from?
Does evil come from within? If so, why?
Where were people before they were born?
How does gravity actually work?
Can achieving nothing make a person happy?
Does the law of attraction exist?
What is the voice in our heads and where does it come from?
Does observation alter an event?
If everyone spoke their mind, would the world be a better place?
What if there were two parallel universes?
Where does the universe end and; why?
Why does it always rain at the weekend?
And why don't you like plum jam?


Stable Roots

​I have no religion.
I’ve dabbled - Paganism for instance.
I like the idea of many gods
divinity in all things
Earth cycles
a soul living in every natural object - but I think religions are a bit like a "club"
and I am not a good "club" person,
so I stay clear of them.
​My faith is just how I was brought up
put simply; who I am
that is - within the love of a small family group.
My parents were only children
there were no aunties, 
no cousins
no sprawling branches
just stable roots.
I was surrounded by love and support
​I met my Great-Gran; 'Ada'.
She lived to be 99!
I have a photo including her complete with the then; whole of my family - these are my people,
this is my religion
my brothers
my parents
my grandparents
and of course; 'Ada'.
These people made me who I am.
They are my guiding principles.
​My upbringing wasn’t clouded by religious structure
religious boundaries
rituals or controls - unless you call love a "structure,"
unless you call warmth and togetherness; "boundaries."
I am grateful for what I have,
no amount of beliefs could have given me anything more.
​These principles I have passed onto my children
the fact that they will never have nothing - they will always have family
and family is their roots.
My children look out for each other,
in them, 
I see the love I had.
I see hope,
and most importantly,
I see that they have faith in each other.

(Haiku)

A cars speed goes up - 
or down, but the miles covered only goes one way!

Paris - The paper planes I launched


​A silhouette against a summer sky,
a textbook come to life
there beyond the car’s window -
filling the gaps in the vocabulary of a schoolboy’s French,
the reality of a schoolboy’s dream
Paris, there in front of me.
​The waiting ended.
Adulthood arrived with my brown suitcase and a choice
the freedom to finally make the step.
She was the opportunity,
my summer love,
the then "love of my life,"
and when she asked,
there was only one answer.
​I went - and I stayed,
trading the distant view for a typical Parisian apartment.
Up past the watchful eye of a concierge,
a winding staircase,
a simple room tucked under the eaves - a possible location for love to bloom.
​Living the Parisian dream,
fed by the scent of the nearby patisserie
and the occasional "two-franc" bottle of Beaujolais Nouveau,
the vintage matching our happy, naive age.
Happy; with the quiet courtyard below
and the paper planes I made to throw into the park below,
taken by the breeze - like the love for the girlfriend who brought me to this place,
love now a ghost from a previous chapter.
​This city stayed inside me,
claiming the space she left behind.
I stayed - with time enough to walk the streets,
to cement the memories
to which I often returned -returning to stand in the very park beneath that apartment window,
looking up to where the paper planes once caught the air.
​The paper planes I launched
are all long since gone,
leaving my heart still up there,
hovering over the rooftops,
always waiting for the next time.

Family Photo

Look at that photo.
This family is my family
The mirror,
that mirror now shares more than my reflection
hung on my wall it holds the light of those who are now long departed 
the silver backing 
the curve of its glass 
displayed the faces of those I love.
The warming pan stands sentry in the corner,
the heavy copper weight of the pan
​that I now have 
stood in my dinning room 
the curtains I looked in through as an adult
hoping for something familiar 
waiting for the past to snap back into place - but it didn't 
the air there now is different
the space is occupied by other people's memories 
instead of the warmth of my loved ones.
 
​If I could reverse time
might I just sit amongst the familiar hub-bub of an afternoon
watching the dust dance in the soft light,
listening to the cadence of those familiar voices 
the ones I hear in my sleep
feeling the solid reality of being
a small part of something greater
​mentioning nothing of the years to come
not warning them of the fading times ahead
just to simply be there
a witness again
to this orchestrated moment 
this day where everyone was there.

​Time is a road
long enough for some; not long enough for us
a road I've marked on a map
which I carry in my heart
its destination is now the stars
the stars I look up at
like the mirror I look into
the same mirror they looked into
and for a heartbeat - I feel them there.


Our Own Gilded Cage

We spend a lifetime 
feathering our nests
layering it with comforts and warmth,
selecting the perfect colours
all set-off with the hum of the technology the modern world demands.
We build this sanctuary only to pay handsomely to leave it,
because ​an algorithm suggests it's what we'd like.
It knows our age
and that we are comfortable in life
and thinks we could afford it - but it doesn't know us.
It feeds us a dream we don't want
of clear blue waters 
an idealistic, 
remote and off-grid log cabin,
a detox  - like the world we've carefully curated is now a mill-stone 'round our necks
"Get away from it all," is the message - but is this not our nest,
our world
the very air we have chosen to breathe?
​What bizarre luxury we have,
to find our own success
deemed to be inappropriate,
claustrophobic,
even insufficient!
Some - those living out on the streets
the ones failing to even find a nights sleep
lucky to find an uncomfortable sofa 
a friend of a friend of a friend 
those with nothing to escape from
those with only their rucksack and a list of failing options
they aren't looking for a dreamy horizon - more just the four walls we - the fortunate ones 
are told we are so desperate to flee from!
Maybe ​this exit is thrown at us
because they know we’ve forgotten how to inhabit
the prison we have created for ourselves.
Perhaps the "away" we crave isn't a coordinate, 
a location,
nor a perfect sunny coastline,
more a break from thinking - the restless mind that builds a world 
high in the clouds
then dies
starved due to its lack of oxygen - the beautiful reality it finally won,
killing it!
We just might be the architects of our own gilded cage - one that follows us wherever we go.

The Syntax of a look

They speak the unspoken,
translating the syntax of a look -
shy embarrassment
and a coy smile.
We who have grown old,
comfortable in our skins
having studied long in this class,
have forgotten the pressure of its first test - how thick the air becomes
when you are still learning the difference between yes and no.
​She offers her laugh to the invisible city all around her,
an unashamed note of trust
that he reads as permission.
A green light to carry on,
to let him pull her to him - not out of surrender,
but as the first test of her own borders,
discovering that she is the one
who keeps the control.
​He answers with a growing boldness,
the hands of a boy
learning the skills of a man,
breaking the code of her proximity.
Discovering that the world doesn't end at the touch
more; begins there.
​They are practicing the moves,
finding the boundaries
in a quiet rehearsal
staged in the open,
where the only thing that matters
is the heat left behind,
the understanding discovered
and the unwritten comfort created between them.

Thirty (30)

Thirty - an unremarkable number - 10 less than 40,
10 more than 20,
or 1 more than 29.
Cats have exactly 30 teeth.
The minimum age a U.S. Senator has to be is 30.
Months; April, June, September, and November have 30 days in them.
30 years signifies a Pearl Wedding Anniversary.
30 is the second point scored in a game of tennis.
In Back to The Future, Marty McFly traveled 30 years back in time.
30 centimeters equals one foot.
30 is Greece's international calling code. 
There are 30 letters in the Bulgarian alphabet.
30 in Roman numerals is XXX.
In life; your 30's often bring peaking face recognition skills, 
higher-quality friendships, increased self-confidence, and it brings the start of your metabolism slowing down.
30 is the title of a song and an album.
30 is the total number of major and minor keys in Western tonal music.
Judas, in the Bible, allegedly betrayed Jesus in exchange for 30 silver coins.
There are 30 tracks on 'The Beatles‘ The White Album.
The atomic number of zinc is 30.
30 represents the first three prime numbers multiplied (2x3x5).
The number 30 is the sum of the first four square numbers.
There are 30 edges on a dodecahedron.
30 is the sum of the first four squares (1² + 2² + 3² + 4² = 30).
30 is a composite number with 8 divisors (1, 2, 3, 5, 6, 10, 15, 30).


...Turning 30 is a major milestone in life - often symbolizing maturity
for some perhaps,
not all!



(Haiku) The Modern Woman


At the rugby.Two 
beers held in the left hand whilst
texting with the right!

A Million Different Horizons

​A friendly
ghost of a past
plaintive 
wistful
the steam rising from a much enjoyed cup of coffee
a piece of furniture
sat in the corner
a photo of a time 
in a frame
something from a different time
bits of our yesterdays
things we carry with us
smooth edges we caress
convincing us
air was easier to breathe
the sun was warmer
and that tomorrow was a stranger best avoided
a cold room we've yet to enter
​our past 
that familiar coat
warm
snug
taking the chill of today's cold wind away
that comfy fit
our thoughts of yesterday
as your yesterdays feel
to you
like a door you recently shut
the handle still warm from your caress
yet to me
that era was just a week ago
whilst my mine sits in a museum
cold
dusty
things found printed in history books
with black-and-white photos
a different colour entirely
a soft glow
like a dusky summer evening
​the pair of us
stood on the same ground
looking backwards at a million different horizons
all of us certain
that was the best of it
time having slipped through both our fingers
but to a different place
where the shadows stretch long
and the golden light dims
​we stand shoulder to shoulder
as if; two ghosts to be
waiting for this current hour
to turn into tomorrows good old days
the days we haven’t learned to miss yet
so we leave that door behind us
stepping into the cool
quiet air of now
reaching for the still warm latch
of a tomorrow 
we’re finally
ready to meet.



Strangers

Mornings used to fit like an old pair of gloves - routine came naturally. 
The garden gate always squeaked on its rusty hinges
we knew the shape of the silence 'round here
a silence which I fear has now gone 
gone in a slow, 
drip, 
drip, 
drip.
The weight of change sitting heavily in the scented air
a new crop of flowers 
now bloom in our neatly manicured flowerbeds 
beautiful - perhaps,
but not planted by us
faces in a street once familiar - now different
We ​watch from behind net our curtains
staring at something unknown
something we see - but don't understand.
We don't trust this unfamiliarity  as it weighs heavily upon us
so we worry,
worry about the things we can't see
the many things left unsaid 
the things that have definitely changed.
Who are these people 
what do they want - will they understand our ways
what are they here for anyway,
with their coloured skins and funny clothes - what do they want?

We're not racist  
​not hostile - just unsure,
hesitant.
We're not unwelcoming - just unclear, 
vulnerable to change,
brittle - this change might break us
so we guard what we know 
like a flickering flame
vulnerable and exposed
afraid that our panicked breath
might blow out the very light of our history.

We didn't really know they'd arrived
we drove along a road they might have made,
passing a playground full of their children - children learning to get along 
and we didn't see that it was them who taught our children
and made us better when we needed to visit the hospital.
We just sit behind our net curtains
watching the front door 
hand on the latch
waiting to see if this new wind
would blow the door in - but it didn't 
but it did make us look within
it made us question who we are.

Who are we?
Weren't we all strangers once?

Scandal

Dead but not gone
the ghost of a convicted paedophile
metaphoric hand grenades clipped to a belt
tramps the corridors of the elite
people on which he lavished their every fantasy - scheming 
ensnaring 
hand grenades in the shape of photos,
videos,
bank statements,
paper trails like an undercover opporation the KGB would be proud of...

Boom!
scandal within a royal family
a Prince 
knocked off his throne
accusations made
rough seas
TV interviews could not calm
titles removed
evictions made 
talk of vast monies paid - the true meaning of the word 'scandal'
the pin pulled out of the next hand grenade
politicians were sought
the ghost came knocking...

Booom!
at the door of one known as the 'Prince of Darkness'
an appropriate name 
created from the murky under-world 
of political spin
the political media strategists
faceless men from the back rooms
in a return that was not foreseen 
a return which; few since said they approved of
he; twice counted out
twice out on the political canvas
a dark grey 'suit' from the shadows - ennobled,
ermin clad,
connected
dazzled by the headlights of fame
drawn in by money and influence
now within the political aristocracy 
but; greedy 
eyes seeking a larger prize!

They said 'due diligence' was done
information gleaned
research undertaken 
choices made - choices which would come back to bite
despite which
to the big league he was sent
the 'Oval Office' 
dripping with power and influence 
complete with another title
a Prime Ministers' reputation sent with him 
a Prime Minister as yet unaware
of the hand grenades still clipped to the belt of a ghost - a ghost seaking this 'Prince of Darkness' 
despatched to the 'States'
taking with him lies confessed to no-one
creating long dark shadows 
stretching far across the Atlantic
not to be silenced 
the growing noise at home eliminating from the stalking 
ghostly presence...
 
Booom!
and this dark prince was toppled
paperwork uncovered
details of relationships  
trapped
by the ghost
of a wealthy 
convincing
connected
convicted
paedophile.

The 'Prince of Darkness' - the 'come-back-kid' 
cold and callous 
taking his treachery right to the very top
no word of the trafficked and abused children
self-centred and uncaring
Booom!
they kept digging
emails uncovered
information passed to his paedophile friend 
the price; keys to a luxury flat
market sensitive information 
allowing a window in which to profit 
documents - vast paper trails
the amounts of monies paid
the lavish parties
the houses bought 
a deal for information
the hand grenades going off 
still sounding in his ears
Booom! Booom! Booom!

This trator now uncovered 
the digital media running full pelt to stand still
packs of snarling editors 
licking lips
social media full of opinion
the printed media unable to keep up
files of uncomfortable reminders
enough to feed the 'Red Tops' hunger for sleaze for a life time
yet...
another pin pulled out

Booom!!
A prime minister caught by the shrapnel 
only a lectern holding him up
flimsy explanations
a lawyer in need of a good lawyer
betrayed by a former party member 
a former colleague
friend
confident
with the whole of parliament 
under suspicion
electorate full of doubt
calls for resignations
talking heads aligning under political colours
the vultures circling
a Prime Minister 
fighting for his political life...

and if you'd submitted this 
as a script 
to a film producer 
for him to take on
...he'd have laughed you out of his office 
saying it's too bizarre
too far fetched!

...Booom!

Rain

Light Rain 
Rain
Heavy rain
A downpour
Sodden
Torrential 
A deluge 
A cloud burst
Pelting down.

Damp
Moist
Wet
Mist
​Drizzle
​Misty
​Spitting
​A sprinkle
A light shower
​Mizzle.

​Completely soaked 
​Waterlogged
Saturated 
​Bucketing down
​Chucking it down
​Teeming
​Pissing, lashing, tipping, hammering it down!

​Nice weather for ducks
​Dreich 
Soaked
​Drookit 
Sheeting down
​Raining stair rods...
The heavens having opened!

... it's very wet at the moment!