Control

How is that so much of what is fundemental to my being is not within my control?
I had no control over who I was born;
to whom I was born to
how I was raised -
the fact that that I was born at all seems like pure chance!
yet I am the one who has had to come to terms with being me.

I had no control over the chance meeting of my 'soon-to-be' wife.
There were a million other options that might have happend that day -
the one chosen for me was that I met my soul mate;
my life partner.

What of the other 999,999 options?
What were they?
What would have happened if another option had been chosen for me?

Who is doing all this choosing?
Why am I not in control of such fundemental elements of my 'being' when it is I who is 'being'?

Perhaps I am!