Death - how can I be there?

1
Jumping on and off life's escalator
to death; the nothingness beyond.
Why can’t I perceve nothing as ‘something’?
Dark as ‘Plath’; death swarms ‘round life,
as it did hers.
Death is the head-lights drawing ever nearer -
life’s one certainty.
Rely on nothing - totally,
except dying.

2
When I’m dead.
You; as I know you will be unable to relate to me.
Some people might miss me;
but I will be unable to miss you
Where will I be?
I will be in my ‘nothing’.
Dress it up if you will;
with promises of eternal glory and waving fields of poppies -
but still; I won’t be able to miss you.

3
How long is the after-life anyway?
(assuming there is one)
If I see an endless road before me,
what is to compel me down it?
For if it is endless,
that is a journey I would never complete.
Will my death be an endless journey through the heavenly spheres?
because if I am not ‘being’ anymore - how can I be there?