If I Could

If I could
if-I-could-only
well,
would I?
If I could - would I?
Would it be wise to?
I mean,
It would be nice to be able to but
...well I'm not really sure!
It would be wonderful!
Imagine!
If I could only...
I don't even know if I can still do it
have I got it in me?
Sometimes
when - when I think I'd like to
when I get all excited about it
I have to I rein myself in
give myself a good talking to - "no!"
don't be silly
it's only a fantasy
I'd certainly be in a better place
if I could
if I could that is
if I could do it
if I did it 
but...

No!
I mustn't 


You're Not Hungry!

You're not hungry you just think you are.
You're not hungry you're just bored.
You're not hungry you just have a sandwich sat in front of you talking to you.
You're not hungry, you must wait until tea time, 
OK lunchtime, 
OK breakfast!
You're not hungry, it's just a phase you're going through.
You're not hungry you just have fond memories of your lunch.
You're not hungry it's just trapped wind.
You're not hungry you just had a day dream about food.
You're not hungry it's just your stomach is telling fibs.
You're not hungry it's just your stomach in cahoots with the shop you're in right now - it's on 25% commission!
You're not hungry you just want this shift to end and you think eating something will make that happen.
You're not hungry - so put that packet of 'Biscuits' down!
You're not hungry, you've eaten enough!

You're not hungry!

What Happens?

What happens?
How does it work - how can it be?
How do we go from a sparkly eyed teenager - straight A's
apple of our fathers eye
'ice creams and pony-tails'
big plans to take over the world
innocence personified!

...then 
...imperceptibly 
...we turn into 
a down at heal
down in the dumps
overweight
mid fourties
twice divorced
4 kids
4 cans of fosters and a quarter bottle of vodka - sort of person

...20 Benson's 
and yet another lighter 
"cos your life's a mess and you can't find the other 
million lighters you've bought previously - sort of person

...going to the shops in our dressing gowns
a pasty and packet of crisps for the only meal of the day - sort of person!

...and all that in just 25 years!

What happens?

(Haiku)

Every day's a great
day when I'm with you - and you
are always with me!

Thoughts and Observations

Does an ant think he's the centre of the universe?
Husbands: a species found standing outside charity shops waiting for their wives
Does the water-butt have a cover over it to keep the rain out?
Now, was that hand-to-ball - or ball-to-hand?
I think I saw a teenager smile!
What would I be doing at home if I wasn't at work?
Why is everything labelled 'fun sized', so small?
I think I was in Brighton when I heard about John Lennon 
Is the boy leaning out the car window learning to push boundaries?
What do you call a women who drives a white van?
Why must I question everything - why!?
I wonder, are those real plastic flowers in that car?
They didn't teach us all that 'contactless - pay with our phones' thing at school
Isn't it supposed to rain later?
Is that four bikes on top of a van or a van underneath four bikes?
What colour do you see when I see blue?

Isn't is funny how we all know what 'an ACL injury' is
Where is 'far and wide'?
Is painting over graffiti - graffiti itself
and will the painting over, be painted over?
Is owning nothing - possessing something?
What does a swede know of Sweden?
What difference does it make anyway
surely nothing is something!
Everything is going on - right now!
And everybody's somewhere, even those who are lost!
have you found out you were lost?

(Haiku)

She used the same ski 
poles to walk with as caused the 
fall in the first place