What Happens?

What happens?
How does it work - how can it be?
How do we go from a sparkly eyed teenager - straight A's
apple of our fathers eye
'ice creams and pony-tails'
big plans to take over the world
innocence personified!

...then 
...imperceptibly 
...we turn into 
a down at heal
down in the dumps
overweight
mid fourties
twice divorced
4 kids
4 cans of fosters and a quarter bottle of vodka - sort of person

...20 Benson's 
and yet another lighter 
"cos your life's a mess and you can't find the other 
million lighters you've bought previously - sort of person

...going to the shops in our dressing gowns
a pasty and packet of crisps for the only meal of the day - sort of person!

...and all that in just 25 years!

What happens?

(Haiku)

Every day's a great
day when I'm with you - and you
are always with me!

Thoughts and Observations

Does an ant think he's the centre of the universe?
Husbands: a species found standing outside charity shops waiting for their wives
Does the water-butt have a cover over it to keep the rain out?
Now, was that hand-to-ball - or ball-to-hand?
I think I saw a teenager smile!
What would I be doing at home if I wasn't at work?
Why is everything labelled 'fun sized', so small?
I think I was in Brighton when I heard about John Lennon 
Is the boy leaning out the car window learning to push boundaries?
What do you call a women who drives a white van?
Why must I question everything - why!?
I wonder, are those real plastic flowers in that car?
They didn't teach us all that 'contactless - pay with our phones' thing at school
Isn't it supposed to rain later?
Is that four bikes on top of a van or a van underneath four bikes?
What colour do you see when I see blue?

Isn't is funny how we all know what 'an ACL injury' is
Where is 'far and wide'?
Is painting over graffiti - graffiti itself
and will the painting over, be painted over?
Is owning nothing - possessing something?
What does a swede know of Sweden?
What difference does it make anyway
surely nothing is something!
Everything is going on - right now!
And everybody's somewhere, even those who are lost!
have you found out you were lost?

(Haiku)

She used the same ski 
poles to walk with as caused the 
fall in the first place

'Til Death Us Do Part


she looked like a lady who knew what to do and ...
not one of those types that didn't have a clue and...
not a walk in the rain - completely wet through...
and I this is how it went

when she looked back she seemed a little older, and...
I don't think that she had a chip on her shoulder and...
I don't think she did what her mother had told her...
her outfit said so much

she sort of smiled and I sort of smiled back and...
I thought this one was a hard nut to crack and...
with defences down, she sort of backtracked...
then she softly whispered

"well sailor boy what are you doing here and...
shouldn't you be at home with your old mother dear and...
when she finds out you've been anywhere near...
you're going to need somewhere new"

so I had to act cooI and l had to act smart and...
not really knowing just where to start and...
hoping this accord would not fall apart...
"do you know of a place I could stay?"

well that reply about knocked her for six and...
saying "if that's how you get your kicks" and...
taking my hand, eyes probing; transfixed...
said "follow me this way!"

I follow her now as I did at the start and...
I wasn't to know she'd have stolen my heart
and my soul, we are as one - off the chart and...
very much 
'til death...
us do part...








The Future

I wanted to have a go at working out some of the big questions of life for you all - in poetry/prose form.
But I think I will just confuse you even further.  But, here we go anyway...

1. The future 
Eventual, forthcoming, imminent, impending, planned, and prospective.

Words to describe "the future"

So what is and where is the future?
What colour is it? (let's not go there - one confussion at a time OK!)

Talking about the future gets you all wrapped up in philosophy 
the future is very much inolved in the subject of "time"
as the future is perceived to be a period of time ahead of us

"time and space"
"how I experience time isn't how you experience time" - that sort of thing

Now, I'm no philosopher - just a confused poet with too many questions in his head
but as I see it
the future is a construct that never actually exists - think about it
the future hasn't yet happened 
yet, when it does happen - when we perceive it to have happened...
it's no longer the future!
it becomes now!

now is the future from 10 years ago
...and now
...and now
...and now - if you get my drift

Modern confectionary. 
Those large 'Duo Bars'
On the side say "one now - one for later!"
When is later?
Now?
...now?
...now!
You were always going to eat both pieces straight anyway weren't you!

I believe that the future is not just sat there 
waiting for you to wake up - all... preordained 
prearranged 
predetermined - and other words beginning with 'pre'
like 'The Generation Games' conveyor belt 
all full with goodies
for you
all heading your way - if you could only remember them
stretching out front of you
feeding itself to you
day by day
hour by hour - no!

You!
You sat there
you and your actions today
"the here and now"
you can change what the future delivers
the future is like an infinitly sided "Rubics cube" 
harder than the normal one
and confess -  you can't even solve that one can you
and so it has an infinite number of permutations
now; I know that West Ham won't win the Premiership 
speaking as a less than dedicated 'Hammers' fan
and I know that if you don't buy a lottery ticket
it is certain you won't win the jackpot
 
Does that mean if you do buy a ticket 
you will win?
well - only a fool thinks so!
(Remember: infinite number of permutations?)
there is a very very very slightly increased chance you'll win something if you buy a ticket
but remember
what should happen - might not happen 
and what shouldn't happen - might
(infinite number of permutations)
the future is a period that has yet to be
what colour and shape it is
is up to you

Try this:
the car that might knock you down if you cross the road without looking 
is still in its driveway 
your actions
and a small thing called 'time'
has a lot to do with that outcome 
and so with your future!

What I do know is that you mustn't  wait for the future.
Make it!
I hope that this has confused you further!
and I wish you well 
...in the future!

Oh and, don't forget to look before you cross that road 
because that car has now left its driveway!

Take care 
...in the future!

Thank you!