Social Media - An Uncurated Life

Social media has become the untutored scrolling thumb of a restless time-traveler.
​Children carry the scales by which they seek to be measured in their pockets.
A vital glowing screen 
that tells them their worth in the eyes of strangers - before they have even measured their own thoughts.
​A yardstick no longer made of wood 
or sense
or logic - but made of noughts and ones
and which gives approval in numbers
a shifting measure where the scales move
every time a stranger from a different country approves - or disapproves!

​No-one even checks the sky to see if it is morning
checking instead their feed to see if they are relevant first.
Approval is a ghost they chase through a hall of smoke and mirrors.
Not the thrill of a race well run,
not the slow reading of a book,
read,
absorbed,
finished,
understood and enjoyed - but a quick, 
hollow hit of number chasing.
​Any achievement is lost.
The "best" is a cold, 
tall peak
where the air is too thin for a child to breathe,
yet they climb,
measuring their soft, 
growing bones
against the steel architecture of a curated lie.
The beautiful sunset seen from the peak of the understanding of the book 
is ignored for the sake of its very likeness 
created on a screen
by a computer 
from somewhere in the world.
​We have taught the child to outsource their joy,
to hand their compass to a machine
that doesn't even know what real joy is.
They stand in the center of their own bright lives,
waiting for a world they cannot touch - and that they cannot have,
to tell them they have finally arrived.

The idea that this arrival 
or that a definition of joy 
is now something determined by an algorithm 
on a server 
on the other side of our world
rather than by the person who is looking into this mirror.
This is not something 
as adults
we should ever ignore
and is not something we should ever walk away from.

Getting Old - No More To Return

​Old age happens when you're not looking.
It happens with recurring events 
like; January snow 
long hot summer days
and you no longer celebrating birthdays.
It doesn't come with the crackle of fireworks
more; the way a river reshapes a stone over time - persistently 
quietly and unnoticed.
Finally the stones sharp edges become smooth,
like it would fit more comfortably into the palm of your hand.

​Although the reflection in the mirror becomes a stranger
that too becomes more comfortable to you over time
telling you the truth - even though you don't want it,
nor did you ask for it.
Your face becomes softer
telling your story
the story of who you are - who you were.
Lines in the corners of your eyes
tell of times of sun
of times your heart was
full of joy  - as well as full of hurt.

​Your knees have an uncomfortable language of their own.
'Clicks' and 'cracks' cause groans and sighs
which speak of miles walked and burdens carried.
Lifes pace slows,
time seems burdensome - there's not enough it
yet somehow; too much of it.
The inevitable destination 
not being further away
simply; you slowing down and the littlest of things demaning more attention than they used to.

​There are things to let go of.
Things that previously seemed important 
now; seems less so.
The need to be the loudest,
to have the newest,
the fastest,
the largest - are now not so important.
The heavy armor we used to wear to keep the world out,
now sits uncomfortably about our shoulders.

And why is the air cooler?
Is the skin more delicate,
or is the once flowing hair now thinner and more grey?
And that silence inbetween words
is no longer an uncomfortable empty space,
more a joy,
a refuge,
like a comfortable chair where you can finally sit down and rest.

​The light too is different at certain hours.
Where once uncomfortably bright - it now glows,
turning the everyday ordinary;
into gold.
You notice the stars have come out
with a calling to look up 
and gaze
and wonder
and enjoy the light
before it fades one more time - no more to return.

Being British

I am British,
but what does that mean?
Where did I come from; and
...who am I?

Let's start with the map of my blood-line - just after the earth thawed.
This changed many shorelines under; many tides.
I came walking over the now lost expanse of 'Doggerland',
blue-eyed and dark-skinned.
I carried flint in my hand.
 
Moving like a slow wave from the warmer Eastern climes,
​I am now the farmers.
I carry with me the secret of the seed 
I am the heavy stone to turn the soil of my chalky downlands.

I built circles to worship the sun
I added a sprinkle of knowledge brought by the Beaker people,
their use of copper 
and their 'Eurasian' songs which were sung.
Together we rewrote the genetic code of the whole of my island - and all in just a few hundred years!
I was a genetic flood 
a tide that never really turned.

​I built my story in many layers.    I am 'Celtic' with added iron-age. I am 'Celtic' innovation and agriculture - but I am also Roman.               
My dead straight roads brought the world to my gate 
as well as my soldiers from the Rhine.  
I became merchants from the 'Atlas Mountains'.
I am 'Angles', 'Saxons' and 'Jutes'
carving my names into the very soil on which you stand.
Names featuring 'Ham', 'Ton', and 'Ley'
turning my island into a patchwork quilt of kingdoms
before came the dragon-ships ...and I became Viking!

I planted the Norse roots in me, into the cold northern soil. 
Hear the many vowels which can still be heard on my tongue.
​Later I am Norman. 
I became a builder of stone towers 
and I took their Latin word 
changing my tongue 
...but not my heart 
and that tide; also never turned!

So who am I, 
what does 'British' mean?
I am as British is the Huguenot weaver.
I am the fleeing Jew
running from persecution - and who is still running.
I am the 'Windrush' generation.
Hopeful souls who came on ocean liners from the colonies - to build a better life.
I am the doctor from Punjab, 
the sailor from Canton.
I am a small part of everything they brought.

I am a trillion drops of rain that became an ocean.
I belong to nowhere - because I come from everywhere.
I am the strong "island nation".
I am the "genetic mosaic" which covers this islands floor.
I have been made over thousands of years
I am migration of all kinds - the result of immigrants 
and that is what I feel
that is what I mean by...

being British


A Cheese Snob

Can you find me some 'Abbaye de Belloc'
I do hope they have some my love!
Of all the collection of Abbey cheeses
this ones taste; is heaven above!

And I mentioned I needed some 'Rainton Tomme'
for the main - perfect in the sauce!
If I can't find some; what would I chose?
it would need to be creamy of course!

I'll see what they have,
some 'Rambol' might do
being creamy and soft
one could use it as glue!

A board with cheese, but not a cheeseboard
suggest a cheese for me.
Perhaps a spot of 'Beemster 
XO', 
a surprise to the palate - let's see!

So to the cheeseboard - the final hurrah!
Name me some cheeses but nothing too bizarre!
'Acorn' or 'Admiral Collingwood?'
or 'Smoked Van Gough' if you will
or there's always that stuff the Americans like,
atop those burgers they grill!

No; no that's not a cheese 
I'm not going out of my mind!
me the old parmesan - me with
my bullet-proof rind!

Don't worry my love; I will find some 'Rambol'
it's going to be just the job!
for this; my perfect menu; but...

...do you think I've become a cheese snob?

That bit inbetween...

Time
too much time
post Christmas stationary time
you have no clue what day it is
your time zone has shifted to 'Pacific Standard Time'
you're out of bed by midday 
yet yawning all afternoon 
lounging around in your pj's 
you can't even see the telly
because of the heaps of wrapping paper all over the floor
you haven't been out for three days 
you've forgotten how to open the lounge curtains
there are piles of sweaty laundry everywhere 
people simply chosing to wear their least-worst looking things
yesterdays attempt at tea is still on the table
if you want to eat using a plate 
you must select one from the huge unwashed pile on the draining board 
and run it under the tap
you're sick of chocolate - even the stuff you bought for yourself 
even the dog won't eat anymore turkey
you've forgotten what bathing is and even the woman have stubble
you sit in a level of squalor a student wouldn't endure  - if you were a house you'd be condemned 
...and demolished 
but you're with the ones you love
you've had a fantastic Christmas 
full of joy and happiness
and presents
and food
and you sit
waiting for the one amongst you 
the one who's had enough
and so who gets up
and addresses the rest,
shouting...

"Enough! 
We need to tidy up!"

Dog and the Christmas dinner

Dedication.
An unflinching stare.
A plate piled high.
A head only moving
to follow the movement of a loaded fork
from an even more laidend plate
to someones mouth - alas not her mouth!

But,
ever patient 
and with eyes full of hope...

...she knows the time will come,
so the dedication goes on!